I haven’t felt this much urge to text and just talk to a certain someone in so loooooooooooooooooooooooong
I may have finally ran out of words to tell you how much I love and appreciate you… although, of course, I will still try! In the past year, I’ve had struggles that I could have not faced had I not have called to hear you say "Kaya mo ‘yan, Paula. Ikaw pa." It has been crazy trying to be the daughter you dream of having, but then I realized how hard you must have tried to be the best mom for us for the past 19 years. Mama, you don’t need to be the best because you have always been more than enough. Happy birthday, Mama!
So if you’re curious about what I did on Valentine’s Day… I spent it with my org batchmates, my brothers and sisters from other mothers! One of the best February 14s ever!
Last Tuesday while I was busy writing the Methodology of my scientific paper for Eng10, I got an urgent text from my brother, Bryan.
"Ate, paano mag-effort ng wala masyadong gastos?"
(translation: How do I make an effort without spending a lot of money?)
That then brings us back to our conversation on Friday, February 14. As my brother’s been courting this girl, Angela, for, more or less, a year now, I asked him what he gave her for Valentine’s Day. I was quite agitated when he told me he didn’t plan on anything because, as he claimed, “Hindi naman kailangan nun tska wala akong pera.” (translation: It’s not necessary. Plus, I haven’t got any money to spend.) I then argued that a simple rose would have done the trick but he, of course, ignored me… which brings us back to Tuesday night.
You can imagine how ecstatic I was when I said, “I told you so!!!” Being the great big sister that I am, I gave him exact orders for the next few days. The surprise was bound on Saturday afternoon so I told him to have pictures of them printed, buy art materials, and etc so that when I get home during the weekend, I’ll help him do it. He got home late that Friday though so today, Saturday, at 7 in the morning, he woke me up begging for my help.
And then, well, three hours later, we had this!
I also asked him to buy flowers head on so he wouldn’t have to bother buying one today. I don’t really know how it went ‘cause Bryan lost his phone a few days ago but I’m pretty sure Angela would love it!
So… what I’m really trying to say is a little effort can go a long way. Yes, I did claim that people should show how much they love their significant other everyday and not just on Valentine’s Day, but… well, what’s so hard in about being extra sweet on love’s special day?
Live the life you’d be envious of if you saw someone else living it. This is my personal mantra. Whenever I’m going through a difficult time, like a breakup, and I’m wishing to be the person who could get over it and move on, I tell myself to be that person. Instead of waiting to be inspired by someone else and being jealous that they’re living a life I wish I had, I tell myself not to wait for that moment and to start being the person I want to be. If you wish you were the woman who went for that big promotion, learned a second language, dumped that guy who cheated on you, then just be that person. Think, if I have the energy to wish for it, I have the energy to do it.
And it’s a good excuse to put our love to use
Baby, I know what to do, baby, I will love you
I’ll love you, I’ll love you
On the morning of the 14th, I woke up not even remembering it was Valentine’s Day. That instant, I was bombarded with greetings from my roommates and so I greeted them back with a huge smile. I closed my eyes and wondered what new strange thing would happen this year. In 2013, I had been too intoxicated with the sick feeling of infatuation that I failed to notice someone who had been there with me the whole time. I somehow still regret that and it’s already been a year.
Frankly, I had no plans whatsoever for 2014. I had been too engrossed in school and org activities that I have failed to… well, search for someone to spend time with on the day society decided was the best day to show someone how much you love them. I beg to differ. I believe that love should be shown every single day. It’s not a one-time thing. The beauty shows when it lasts and what better way to portray that than an every day act of love?
Earlier that day, a friend of mine approached me and poured how much he got hurt by someone just days before the 14th. “I had invested so much and yet, every single time I do, I had gotten hurt all the same.” and then and there I told him that love’s not supposed to be that eager. Love, in order to be sturdy, should be molded. The molding process, I believe, is the most critical part of falling in love.
And I’m not even writing this because I’m bitter from all the couple photos on my timeline. I mean, I love love. Valentine’s shouldn’t be just about romantic love!
Lastly, What’s so wrong about not wanting to invest on something you know won’t last? That’s the question I’ve always wanted to tell people when they ask me why I’ve never put too much effort to be in a relationship. Love’s a special feeling. I’d like to believe it’s something so delicate and pure. When I meet that someone, I want him to receive the love I know he deserves — a love that’s rich and packed, something I want to offer fully.
But then again, who am I to tell you what to do?
I’ve been such a bitch for refusing to update this blog for two weeks. I don’t feel the need to say sorry though because (a) I had so much fun and (b) no one actually noticed that I’m gone anyway so that’s not really a problem…
Anyway, if anyone of you is interested though, here’s what I have been up to:
First, after 3 months, I’ve finally finished all the aired How I Met Your Mother episodes! I’ve been planning on doing it for years and I am so glad I’ve finally had the guts to do it. At first I was really anxious because it is a 9-season long series and I wasn’t sure if I could finish it until the very end but alas, I did! I guess I did find some of the latter episodes kind of boring compared to the earlier ones but the obsessive compulsive in me started to kick in and I just had to finish the series and so I did!
Next, because I have yet to wait for the next episode of HIMYM, I got myself busy with a totally different series: Sherlock!
I AM HOOKED! I’ve never been this hooked on a series since Suits!! I love Sherlock and Watson! They’re like Harvey and Mike in many ways! If you love things that make you think, this is definitely the show for you! That cliffhanger on the last episode of season 3 (actually all 3 seasons) was such a bitch!! God, how could Moriarty have pulled that one off?
Other than TV series, I also was busy with org-related activities most especially on Slosh: The Rock Your Assets Splashback, a benefit party by the UPLB Economics Society!
So thankful for the positive feedback we got! Thanks to the 600+ people who got wet and wild with us last Wednesday night! We hope you had fun!
Also, I got nominated for the top 3 positions for our organization’s next executive committee so that’s surprising. The deliberations were held yesterday and I think I did okay for most of it! I’m aiming for the position of the secretary so pray for me, guys!
Lastly, Dad is back from Vietnam!! He’s going to stay with us for 15 days and I’m trying to come up with a plan to make him feel special before he leaves for work again! Suggestions?
Anyway, that’s all! Happy Chinese new year, everyone!